Oh, how hard it is to be a mom when your child hurts. Physically or Emotionally to watch your child hurt is so sad. I wonder in times like these, why God.. What is the lesson in this pain?
As a mom, my emotions range from sadness to anger back to sadness.
For the past year, I have watched not only my daughter but my entire family struggle with loss.
At times it felt like we lost everything. Our intimate circle of friends had decreased. We lost our church family. My daughter lost her best friend. Hard for a teenager to deal with.
We have struggled immensely, I have questioned God..more times then I care to recount. We are not in a church, nor am I sure..I wish to be.
This past weekend, I was talking with my girl..and I was watching her slowly look through her photo albums. My daughter loves to take pictures, so pretty much anything we do is documented at some point by photos.
I asked her if she was ok? And the tears just started to pour...she methodically started removing pictures from her albums, and said she feels like the last 4 years of her life was wasted on people who don't really care about her.
I explained to her that our time was not wasted, we had many good times and those should be remembered. We can't focus on the hurts. I understand her hurt. We had people walk away from us without so much as an explanation. And we gave up on people. Hardest thing to do is to let people you love walk in sin, when you know~ they know better, yet they won't hear you. We walked away... we separated ourselves. Gosh that was hard, cause we know..we are not perfect people either. We prayed, and prayed and prayed. We sought other godly counsel..and then we walked away.
We're still praying for all..including ourselves. We pray for true repentance on their part. We pray that if we are wrong, that God will reveal it to us. But most importantly we continue to pray, cause we do know...they know better.
One of the hardest things to deal with is know that you have someones back, if they would just do the right thing..
As the sadness creeps up, we pray for peace. My daughter misses her friend. We all miss them.
I never want to feel my time is wasted. When we live for God we aren't wasting our time. Weather we remain friends with people until we die or we are only used for a short season.
NEVER think your time is wasted.
If you are hurting too, keep in mind that God is good...and he knows.
For what it's worth, if the families that we are in conflict with came to true repentance, we would forgive and move on. Until then we will continue to pray.
I am grateful to you Lord. You know all things from beginning to end. You know why this happened the way it did, and only You completely know everyones heart. I continue to pray for repentance Lord. I ask that you would soften their hearts to reveal to them your word. I pray for a peace that surpasses all understanding. We will never understand your motives in this Lord, but we know your hand is in it. Thank You Lord for always be there. Thank You for reminding me, my time is never wasted when we do all things unto you.
From Our Home to Yours...